illness cured my boredom.

Day 4 of being sick and Mum shipped me off to school today. Baaaaad idea.
Felt crappy as anything, so hopefully I'll be getting tomorrow off!

I forgot to post the pictures last night, but I made those rainbow cakes I found on Kalyah's blog! Apart from the fact that Tescos didn't stock any blue food colouring, they came out pretty darn good! Anndddd! I had a bit too much chocolate frosting left over ;)

                            

The photos don't do the colour any justice but they were really bright! And proper yummy too.

But this is just a quick little blog to let you know that I'll have a new header photo up later that I've designed and drawn myself (with a little help from how-to-draw-funny-cartoons.com and piknik.com) - I'm quite proud of it! ^^

But for now, toodle pip!
xox

in sickness and in health..

I actually can't breathe.

I've been dying for the last few days, with a stupid bunged up nose, cough and general unwell feeling. And I had an exam yesterday morning. Fail.

Anywho. I came straight home after the exam and snoozed on the sofa, and that's pretty much all I've been doing since! Except for eating.. I had 8 hot dogs and 3 brioches today - just as a snack!

Today I feel an iddle better. I watched Death At A Funeral while painting my nails, and although I was quite focused on my nails, I thought it was quite a funny film! Much more interesting than I Love You Phillip Morris or whatever that I watched 5 minutes of before turning it off.

Right. Back to the point of the blog. 3 things!

Yesterday I was doing the Avon, when a lady turned around and said 'Oooh! I love your hair colour!'. As flattered as I was, I'm not entirely sure why she said it.
Up to about a week after dying it Cyber Purple, it was an awesome pinky purple colour. Really bright and vivid and shiny. But now.. Now its just some odd plummy brown colour.. It doesn't look too bad, but after seeing a blog, I intend to re-dye soonish!

That blog was the next thing I wanted to talk about.
I'm sure she wont mind me naming her, but one of my best friends, Suzie, saw I was feeling a little crappy and sent me the link to The Dainty Squid - which I am now addicted to! Kalyah (the writer) has some really awesome posts, from making multicoloured cupcakes (which I can't wait to try make!) to dying your hair, and from the look of her bright blue locks, she knows her stuff!
So go check that out. I promise it'll make your day.

The third thing was inspired by a tutorial Kalyah has on her blog - how to do polka dot nails.
I saw them and had to give it a try! I needed something to cheer me up!

Surprisingly, they came out pretty well!




As you can see, I just did two per nail, just to try, but I quite like it! It looks a lot cooler in person - trust me! I just hope my head of year doesn't see them and make me take it all off..

Behind my gorgeous hand, you can see one of my horrible snotty tissues. I despise having a blocked nose. My mouth is constantly open and I just look creepy. And it stings like a bitch! Soreeee.

Oh! I made myself a yummy hot chocolate earlier too. It was particularly nice as I added a little cinnamon to spice it up a little. Unfortunately we didn't have any marshmallows or cream, but I'll definitely be using cinnamon again!

Right, I'm gonna get an early night, as I know I'll feel even crappier tomorrow if I don't, so goodnight!
xox

Just forgot! In my last post I mentioned a song that I can't stop listening to at the moment. It's from the New Moon soundtrack (hush! I like the film and the songs from it are actually very good!) and its called Hearing Damage by Thom Yorke. (who I've just discovered is part of Radiohead!)

3am carrot and mayonaise revision.

Its been a while! But with a good excuse. My poor laptop has gone to laptop heaven, and I hate using the home computer.
But desperate times call for desperate measures.

Its a bit of a stupid time to be blogging, I know, but I just cant focus on my revision. I have a product design written paper.. well tomorrow now, and I'm revising like mad, but I have so much else running through my mind at the moment..

Spoke to the Polar Bear earlier, whom I miss very much. They said some things that made me contemplate how I've been lately, and I think I've realised something.


'No relationships are ever finished, just abandoned..'
Comes from a cute little song by Paulson called Window Frames, but sums up everything I feel at the moment.
I'm making myself very ill over a past relationship with a guy I still have strong emotions towards and I thought that if he gave me some kinda reason why nothing would ever happen again, I could finally move on.

But he can't. And so my feelings remain.

At 15 I shouldn't be getting so worked up over a relationship, or over feelings. The fact that I am, annoys me.

I've been spending a lot of time alone with my thoughts. Endless hours watching Twilight films, playing guitar, walking my dog with headphones blaring.. I took a train into town just for the journey and sat in Bristol library for hours. I haven't spoken to many people - I haven't wanted to. My mum and brother have been getting really annoyed that I go out for the whole day 'with friends' rather than doing things with them.

But I prefer life that way.

At the moment my own company is all that makes me happy. I don't have the will power to do much else or the want to talk to anyone or to be sociable. And to any of my friends reading this, I apologise for that. But sometimes you reach a point in your life where your troubled thoughts and self esteem to match needs to be lonely.

Lonely with time to contemplate. Contemplate the past, the future, the present. Contemplate your priorities. Contemplate your wants from your wishes.


But through everything, time alone to contemplate the path you wish to take.
Sadly, I'm yet to decide that path.

I'm happy sitting on trains, just because I enjoy the feeling of escape I get. I enjoy sitting in my room with my guitar, writing songs about hearbreak and shedding the occasional tear. I love walking alone through a feild in the sun, day dreaming while listening to Hearing Damage for the billionth time.

So for now blogs will be rare. Especially on the fashion and beauty front. But with good reason for their rarity.




Its been a while. But with good excuse..
xox